Most Important Meal of the Day

As I awoke on January 1st, 2012 I was hungry. It was a whole new year, yet my basic human instincts still overwhelmingly effected my mood. Hunger is the most prevalent characteristic that I possess. My fellow peers, family, and friends can attest to my love of food. Don’t believe me? Check out my food blog! ZING

After a super fun night in Downtown Annapolis, I realized that I had become so insecure about myself that I’d rather be alone than to be happy with someone else. I’m the largest reason why my last serious relationship ended back in August. I’ve been trying to bounce back, and I have been, slowly but surely. Anywho…getting side tracked.

FOOD, ah, yes. While everyone else was asleep in my father’s house, I decided to make breakfast. After about 1 hour spent slaving over the stove I had a minuscule amount of batter left for this last pancake. I wanted to spell 2012 to introduce the new year properly; however, I ran out of batter. So my quick culinary genius *smiles* I made a smiley face. After preparing that last pancake and looking at it, I realized that it doesn’t really matter what year it actually is. All that matters is how I live that year out. I’ve been so cranky, miserable, and selfish, and it is ALL MY FAULT.

With that solitary pancake staring back at me, I smiled. Not a dumb, fake smile. But a genuine smile. This year, I want my New Years Resolution to be: to smile more. With the death of my mom and several shit-tastic breakups over the last few years, I  lost my spark. I lost my smile.

This year my hope is to rekindle with that smile. Not necessarily the “previous” Alex, but a new and modified Alex. I want to smile again, for no reason. I want someone to fill that void that I lost in the attic of solitude. I want love. I already have genuine friends to shower my life with happiness, but there is still a part I’m missing. I don’t want to sabotage my future relationship(s) anymore.

I’m tired of picking apart people and finding EVERY flaw imaginable. I need to look past their shell and see the heart they have to offer.

All this stemmed from a smiley pancake. Happy New Years =]

Aero, my new puppy

So this is Aero. My roommates and I got her a few weeks ago. She is currently about 9 weeks of age. She is a dream come true.

A silhouette of sadness

I am in love. Thinking about our days in the park with our boston terrier. I just ate a wonderful meal with you in my arms. My heart is stricken with the purest of all splendor. I awake with your hand in mine. Look in your beautiful eyes and get lost for what seems like days. The gentle pools of color are inspiring. I caress your cheek and watch as your face as it becomes reddened with a blush-filled smile, your dimples deepened. I kiss your forehead and let out a sigh of pure happiness. As I get out of the bed and put on my clothes I go out onto the balcony of our hotel suite. The sun-kissed waves slowly moving from left to right. All you hear is silence.

Unrealistic silence…

I wake up…driving. Stopped at a red light. You are in tears.

As I continue looking into your eyes I realize the lie and slander of my thoughts. Light turns green. Now I am driving, and I see a deer in front of me. I heart is given to you for protection. The world around me crumbles and you stumble away barely escaping. My legs break, and I’m left alone from the disaster. I am there waiting for help that will never come, only having thrown you out of the car seconds before the crash. Last I saw was you saying that you’ll be right back and that you love me.

As my body gets colder I realize that you were never in the car. There never was a deer. No rain or snow. No giving away my heart. You never existed to me, the way I thought in my mind. It was a lie. I am a lie. I am alone. Every time I felt the smallest sense of love, I crashed.

I hurt you. I hurt me.

And I am sorry.

I cannot wait to begin at Towson University this upcoming fall. I’ve taken a year off from school to attain a better financial standing, and I have. The first week of school I am proud to say that I have the means to pay for my tuition in FULL. I am part time so it’s not like its a lot of money, but it’s still a few thousand. I am working vigorously at my pet store dogma-life,with your pet and as a demonstration specialist for Distinctive Demonstrations (an organic demo company).

I’ve gotten all my classes situated and I am ready to begin as a new Towson Tiger!

Wish me luck on my venture as I begin anew. This will be the fourth college that I have attended. I hope it is the one that fits. I’ll have great friends there already like Caitlin, Liz, and Heidi! I cannot wait to have lunch and study together :]

Later,

Arex

This comedy was anything but common or ordinary. This is a movie that I would love to watch over and over. So many quick wordplay and hilarious scenes. Horrible Bosses was wonderfully directed by Seth Gordon. The movie is character driven. Unlike so many movies with big-named stars, this movie doesn’t solely rely on their star power. Each character does a very good job at bringing something funny and different to the movie.

The plot: There are three friends( Jason Bateman, Jason Sudeikis, and Charlie Day) and they have three awful bosses (Jennifer Aniston, Kevin Spacey, and Colin Farrell). The quick witted humor, character sharpness, and a well written script, this movie has a recipe for success. I really recommend this movie to anyone! We’ve all been there and had a shitty boss or a boss that has treated us awful.

There are so many great scene. There are epipens, accidental cocaine highs, murders, plotting, awful planmaking, insane phone calls, arab stereotypes and sexual harassment blackmail. Trust me, you’ll love this movie. It has a character for everyone to relate to and a boss to hate for everyone. Also, I’d like to say how HOT Aniston looked, phew.

I give it 4.5/5! AWESOME MOVIE

New shoes and new leg brace

I’m am talking today about a very real problem, shitty shoes. For the past few months I’ve been wearing nothing but crocs, sandals, and unsupported shoes. I’ve also been working on concrete floors 65+ hours a week. This has created a recipe for diaster.

I have: Plantar fasciitis.

Which is defined as: inflammation of the thick tissue on the bottom of the foot. This tissue is called the plantar fascia. It connects the heel bone to the toes and creates the arch of the foot.

I have now bought brand new shoes. I will be getting very expensive arc support inserts for my new shoes. And I feel exponentially better. I went from, two weeks ago, not being able to walk or stand. To having more than 90% movement again! w00t. This is a really scary thing. I’m urging everyone to buy proper shoes and give your feet a break. These shoes can also help with back pain.

Look for these shoes:

Asics, High End New Balances, and Saucony. They will range anywhere between $50-$150. Depending what fits, regaurdless the price tag, its one of the best investments I’ve ever made. This has saved my feet and allowed me to bounce back quickly. I’m thankful for my Podiatrist and his lovely receptionist!

Maryland Podiatry Center: http://www.marylandpodiatrycenter.com

Again, thanks Dr. Murphy for fixing me!

And thanks William for putting up with my foot and driving me around! :]

Dancing with my girls in Baltimore

For the first time in my life I’m okay with drinking. I’ve never really been much of a drinker, I would have my occasional beverage but nothing serious. And don’t get me wrong, I only drink is someone (who is sober) is driving or I am staying the night at someone’s place. I am starting to want to go out and experience what it is like to be “21.” I get into any place I want and can do anything that I want. I’m torn between what my values were. I was incredibly closed minded growing up. I really assumed anyone who was a social drinker or smoked were beneath me. Apparently I’m a douche for thinking those things. A lot of great people smoke and drink. This is their way of easily expressing themselves and be who they are. I still have never smoked a cigarette, but I have started socially drinking at parties and things of that nature.

I also want to express how excited I am about my vacation to Jamaica. WHAT WHAT! YESSSSS! My roommates John and Theresa are getting married there this month. We will be down there from 6/21-6/28. I also want to visit Ocean City, MD for the first time this year with Maria. I really want to vacation in Alabama and see my god parents and my god family.

This month is going to be littered with hurt and pain from last year, but be overruled and lifted by love and friendship. I can’t describe how much my friends have shaped me. I really would not be so in touch with reality if it wasn’t for them. I want to visit Bethany Beach and Florida this summer too.

This is also my  P.S.A. for the day.: I think everyone deserves to try anything once and just be yourself. If you aren’t into something then don’t do it. Don’t let phony people sway you. Your true friends will support any decision you make.

-Arex

Let's begin this thing

So I’ve joined an online dating site. And I’m hoping to maybe not find the end-all-be-all but hopefully something meaningful. I know that more and more people are finding significant others online, so why don’t I give it a shot. I’m not looking for hookups, cause an S.T.D. is not something that fits into my schedule. HAHA

Any who anyone have any advice? Thanks :]

Also I’m not opposed to being met up with someone by a friend…so. Let’s do this thing. Also I just had a sorta odd and hurtful breakup. I’m fine with everything, I believe that the other person will regret their sneaky decision.

—update 5/30—

So I’m not on as much as I was. I actually started talking to someone pretty cool recently. Don’t know where it will go, but I’m optimistic <3

Graduation Party

So I am so incredibly excited to begin a new college career at Towson University. I mean, I love the jobs that I’m doing now, but I am ready for the next step in my life, and I’m ready for my career. I’m ready to buy a house, raise a dog, and find a partner. I’m ready to finish school and begin the next stage in my life.

I’m currently in school for Art Therapy. Towson University will have more options for me than UMBC had, which is why I’m switching schools. Also, UMBC has little to no school spirit, which I didn’t like. I want to feel immersed in school pride! Also, TU is less expensive, so wOOt wOOT!